I've felt better

Sorry its been so long. Life has brought us in many different directions these past few weeks. Ironman weekend was crazy. I was able to pull it together and get to watch my fabulous husband finish his 3rd Ironman! It was not an easy day for him but he pushed through and did what he had to do to become an Ironman again. I have been comparing my chemo treatments with finishing an Ironman. On this day, Joe showed that the hardest part of the Ironman is the marathon sometimes. I have just the marathon portion to complete in this chemotherapy journey. I went into Tuesday feeling ok - a little fatigued but overall in great spirits. After Ironman weekend, we were able to calm down and get ourselves together to have some really relaxing days. I felt recovered from the last round of chemo going into this round. I can see the finish line now and understand that I only have to go through this two more times and not feel well two more times. Tuesday's treatment went by without major issues. My MUGA scan came back with 63.2% efficiency which is down from 65.7% and thus chemo has had a small impact on my heart but from all I have heard it should go back to normal after chemo is finished. My RBC count is still low and my hemoglobin count is also low due to the RBC count. This is allowing me to feel tired a lot of the time. I usually feel good enough to go and eat dinner with Joe out on chemo days. We went out as normal and then within an hour, I did not feel well. I felt so bad that Joe had to find me clothes to wear to bed. Wednesday is a blur - I know that acupuncture helped me with my nausea for the day. Thursday I convinced myself to go out on the bike. This felt excessively slow but helped with nausea for a little bit. Today has been tough. I just want to sleep. I want to feel like me again. I want to have the energy to put on my running shoes and run. I want to not feel sick to my stomach. I know that "This too will pass." I also know that I only need to do this once more. I know that my husband is amazing and is doing great things to help me feel better. I understand that chemo has a cumulative effect, I just didn't expect it to be so intense this time around. Hopefully the last time will be better. I'm awaiting my switch to be pushed so that I can feel better and move forward. It will come. I will get through this round. Only one to go! 13 out of 52 herceptin treatments done too!